Want to Play A Game

I’m not giving in to his proposal. I don’t understand why he thinks I will be the one running back to him, no, thank you. I walk over to Matt’s apartment to tell him all that has happened. It’s like some crazy shit that would only really happen in the movies, never in real life. As I am knocking on the door I hear moving, excited to see him as the door opens.

“Hello” she says to me if I’m being honest I felt like I was being stabbed. I’m disappointed, but he doesn’t belong to me, I tell myself.

“Hi, I was wondering if Matt was here and if he could talk?”

I can feel her looking over me, judging me when she doesn’t even know me. “Yea what do you want with Matt he is sleeping and l am not about to wake him to just waste his time because he surely does not want to talk to you.”

“Look, we are friends, he would love to talk to me could you get him, please.”

She laughs and shuts the door what the fuck has just happened confused on who she is. I don’t want to seem desperate, but I also don’t want to take advantage of fuck her I knock on the door again. When she answers I don’t waste any time “look here, bitch I don’t know who the hell you are, but I said I need to talk to Matt, so, please get him now.”

I don’t even allow her to speak back to me, I don’t want to hear her shit as she goes to open her mouth I ask her, “what are you still doing here go get him now I need to speak to him.”

I am tired of letting people walk on every week it is time that I demand what the fuck I want and if they don’t like it honestly, who cares. It’s only morning I already had one hell of a day. I need my friend and not taking anyone’s shit. I see Matt as he’s walking out to where I am. I smile at him as soon as I’m in presence . I feel relieved. It’s like I become happy as soon as I see him that he is my peace.

“Jessica, what is going on? What are you doing.”

“Matt, I have just had a terrible day and I really need somebody to talk to. Can we talk?”

“Really, I saw that man in your apartment, and you come over here after you’re done with him to come to me. I’ve been trying to get a hold of you, but you have been ignoring me, but now you want to talk to me, I think you should just go.”

“Matt, wait, it has been a horrible past couple of days. I haven’t talked to you because I’ve just been trying to get through it. Please don’t shut me out.”

“Well, I can’t talk to you now you’re going to have to go.” He shuts the door in my face as tears start to develop, not understanding why he has to be so mean.

I know that I have ignored his calls yesterday. I just didn’t want to talk about everything I was having a bad day. Why is he so angry that he’s just shutting me out for some fucking random girl? I hate that every time I do something wrong, he’s always trying to get back at me?This content © Nôv/elDr(a)m/a.Org.

How could I ever be with someone who is so willing to be with somebody else? I walked back over to my apartment. I need time to think about what my next action is going to be. Unsure of what my options really needing someone to talk to. I sit, and I think to myself, then suddenly I know what I need.

I decided to call my mom, the one person I know that I can always count on. As I go get my phone, I dial her number. I listen as it rings, praying, then she answers. Never wanting to talk to someone so much At this moment. I become static when I hear her say “hello”.

“Hey mom, how are you busy.”

“I am doing great Jessica, I am not busy at the moment what is wrong my dear.”

“I was wondering just maybe if you are up for a sleeper over, maybe you could come Over and get me, and we could have a girls night together.”

She pauses. I am worried that she’s going to say now wanting her to so no. “Jessica, that sounds wonderful. I’ll be there 15 minutes.”

I am relieved that she is coming. I go and pack a little bag to get to her house. I pack a couple of extra outfits just in case I Stay longer. I just need to get away from here for a little while. It will be nice to spend some time with her, I haven’t in some long. I decided instead of waiting in my apartment that I will wait for her outside my apartment building.

As I dare to walk out my door and lock it, I see Matt with that woman. Trying not to care, wondering why he is being such a dick. I just keep reminding myself that he doesn’t belong to me. I guess a part of me wishes that he did and that he would change, just maybe he really liked me. Now I am just thinking that it was all a game that he wanted to play. I was just the fool that fell into his trap. I walked past him showing no emotion, not wanting him to knowledge him. Thankfully, when I got down to the entrance to leave the building, my mother was there.