Tolerating The Player

“I’m leaving for Brazil next week” I poured out and looked at her face, she was awestruck and I feared I might have said it wrongly as she removed her hands from mine.

“Isabella” I tried to grab her hands back but she removed them from the table and placed them on her laps.

“Brazil for what?” She asked and I could see the obvious pain in her eyes.

“I have to continue my football career so I’m going to a football college in Brazil” I said and immediately saw a feeling of sadness. I could see tears building up in her eyes but she tried to cover it up as she looked away from me.

“Next week?” She asked and I nodded my head, she tried to feign a smile through her red eyes.

“Yes, I’m sorry I should have told you earlier”I apologized but she laughed and brought my hands to hers.

“It’s cool,” she said.

I’m not going to believe any word she says at this moment. It was clearly obvious that she wasn’t fine with it and she was in pain, her eyes were filled with tears but she’s trying to hold them back from falling and it’s all my fault. If I had been sincere with her from the beginning then none of this would happen but I was scared of losing her so I didn’t tell her on time but now I’m more afraid that I’ve lost her.

“Come with me, you can study in Brazil too, my father will take care of the expenses” I rushed my words out as I held her hands tightly in fear of it slipping away.

“It’s nice of you to consider me in this decision of yours but I’m sorry I can’t follow you to Brazil, I have to take care of Joe here” she said and I knew she was upset at me.

“I want to go home and help Maya pack for school tomorrow” she said and stood up from the chair. I knew she was upset as she didn’t say anything throughout the ride but I could hear her quiet sobs. I really do hope she forgives me because I promise to never forget or let her go.

We arrived at Maya’s house and I parked the car, she still didn’t say anything to me as she came down from the car and I rushed down immediately too.

“Bella, you’re not going to say anything to me?” I said in a hoarse voice, I was going crazy with her silent treatment. I hated it whenever she was upset at me and I don’t know how to deal with it.

She stopped for a second and turned to look at me, she was going to say something but instead opened the door and walked in locking me outside.

“Fuck!” I cussed as I hit my car really hard, I entered the car and buried my head on the wheel as I cried the pain in my chest out. I mustered up the courage to drive to my house.

I dialed her number but she wouldn’t answer her calls. I wonder if I will be able to sleep tonight knowing that she’s upset with me.

Just as I predicted it was hard for me to fall asleep, I ended up staying up all night with different thoughts in my head. Perhaps I’ll cancel the school in Brazil and school in any school close to us so we can be together. That’s definitely what I’ll do.

It was six am in the morning and I ran out of my house to my car with dark circles around my eyes from the lack of sleep.

I reached her house and I was just on time because they were about to escort Maya to the airport.

“Isabella!” I yelled out her name immediately I came down from the car and ran to meet her. I would have greeted Mr and Ms Anderson but I wasn’t in a good mood.

“We need to talk, Isabella!” I said and Maya gave her a reassuring nod to follow me and I heaved out a sigh of relief as she walked up to me.

“Hi” she casually said and I felt a sting in my heart, she never says “hi” to me no matter how upset she was with me.

“I’m sorry Bella, I’ve been thinking lately….”

“I’ve also been thinking too” she sharply cut me off.

“I can’t stop you from achieving your goal so you have to go to Brazil but then I’m not sure if what we have can work out anymore with you being miles away for years” she said and my heart broke.

“I’m not going anymore, I’ll stay here with you” I said so she would cancel out whatever the fuck she was thinking about breaking up with me because that can never happen.

“You have to go Zach” she pestered and I dragged her hand as I held it really tight.

“You want me to go? But then you’re willing to call this relationship off but you know what Bella, you’re stuck with me forever and we’re not calling this off so I’m not going to Brazil” I said and worries flashed in her face.

“I can’t be selfish enough to not let you pursue your dream and career..”

“You’re my dream Isabella, to be with you is my dream to have a family with you is my career don’t you get that?” I yelled but I didn’t mean to yell. I just want her to stop being stubborn and accept the fact that she’s stuck with me and I’m not leaving.

“You have a passion for football and you need to go please” a tear rolled down her eyes.

“I can’t let you go Isabella” my voice cracked and she stood on her toe as she pulled me closer to her and kissed me. I held her closer and tighter as I buried my sorrows and pain into the kiss. There’s no way I’ll stop kissing these lips of hers.

“I promise I’ll come visit you sometime and you also will visit me okay? But please go to Brazil, we’ll remain together” she said and I thought about it. To be frank, I was getting worried about someone else taking my position once I leave for Brazil but I trust her enough. Perhaps frequent visits would prevent that.

“Okay but please promise you can’t forget about me!” I brought her hands to my face and she let out a painful smile.

“I promise you Zach” she said and hugged me really tight like she was about to lose me but that will never happen.

“You should have told me earlier then I wouldn’t feel this way, I would have prepared myself for whatever would happen next and I definitely won’t have this painful feeling in my chest like I’m going to lose you forever” she cried on my chest and I patted her hair.

“I’m sorry” I apologized, at this point we didn’t mind if we were in an open place with some neighbors probably staying at us through their window as we remained in the same position for minutes.Exclusive © content by N(ô)ve/l/Drama.Org.

“Let’s go to my place and watch a movie together” I suggested as she held my t-shirt, I stared at her wondering what she could be up to but didn’t move. She moved closer to me and my eyes widened immediately she wiped her nose on my shirt.

“Bella!” I grumbled and she sniffed her nose.

“That’s the punishment you get for keeping something important from me for so long” she said and majestically walked to the car like she had won a competition against me.

I followed her to the car and started the drive, I looked at her face as sadness and guilt enveloped me. She hasn’t forgiven me fully just yet as I could tell she was still thinking about it.

We reached my house and I turned on the television for her to select the movie she would watch while I went to the kitchen to make us some snacks that would sustain us throughout the movie.

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“You know you have to sleep on time so you don’t wake up late tomorrow and miss your flight” she scolded me as she collected the toast from me and ate it. It was the last toast which was the only toast I’ve been eating. She seemed to really love my toasts because she ate five under ten minutes while I was still struggling with one toast which she ended up collecting from me.

“Sending me to bed and collecting my only toast are two different things” I grumbled. She turned the television off and dragged me to the room.

“After all I don’t know when next I would be able to eat your toast” she muttered under her breath but I heard her and lifted her chin to bring her face to mine.

“You’ll eat my toast real sooner” I smiled and placed a kiss on her forehead before we both laid on the bed and I pulled her body closer to mine before sleeping off. I would really miss the warmth of her body every night.

The sun rays from the window flashed in my eyes and I brought out my phone to check the time, I immediately jumped off the bed. We had both slept off and my flight was in less than an hour. I was glad she helped me pack everything already yesterday. If not I would definitely miss the flight.

“Bella we’re late!” I yelled and she also jumped off the bed as we both rushed to the bathroom while chuckling. In no time we had finished our bath and she dressed me up like a goddamn child before I drove to the airport.

We were lucky to arrive at the airport 5 minutes before the plane would take off but then I was a little bit sad because I wouldn’t get to spend a lot of time with her before leaving.

“I love you Zach” she whispered in my ear then kissed me before I would enter the plane.

“I love you too” I kissed her on her forehead before leaving. I don’t know why it somehow felt like I wouldn’t be able to meet her till forever. I mean I couldn’t stand a day without her talking to me then how would I stand a whole week talkeless or months.