Chapter64 Intensive Therapy
Intensive Therapy
Elena
“I believe in you, Elena. Not too long now.” Marcus, my physiotherapist, urges me on while I do my
leg exercises. It has been close to four months since the accident and I can walk on crutches, but the
biting cold of winter in London has made it difficult. The pain when I wake up in the morning is dull but
bearable and nothing anti-inflammatories could not fix, although I tend to not take them as much due to
my weak disposition. What else can I do but grin and bear it?
I know that this is necessary for me to walk again but damn it.
You would think the physio would hurt more, but it’s the sessions with my therapist that do. I have
been weaned off my anxiety medication and he’s placed me on a light antidepressant. The reason for
this was that I realised I was slowly getting addicted to the anxiety medication. I popped one whenever Content provided by NôvelDrama.Org.
a wave of anxiety hit and it was happening too often to count. My therapist praised me for recognising
my addictive habit and helped me work through the weaning off stage. Gosh, it was difficult, but it was
worth it. My head has never felt more clear.
Today was a bit easier. Marcus is happy with my progress and I can take a few steps without my
crutches now. I think it’s more fear that was holding me back from walking again. Isaac and Sebastian
have been my constant support through this, and I swear I was doing a hundred times better than
before.
Sebastian had a room in our villa constructed into a physio room and Marcus comes here three to
four times a week for our sessions. Even my therapist gets paid to come here. My husband wasn’t
risking anything after Eliana and Robert’s stunts, and I couldn’t blame him.
My session with Marcus ends and he helps me move to my wheelchair where I breathe out a sigh
of relief and smile, “Thank you, it was a tad easier today.” I say and take a sip of my water bottle. He
returns my smile and nods, “Another month or two and you won’t need to use those crutches anymore,”
he says. I think back to the days I took walking for granted and sigh wistfully. I miss my heels and thigh-
high boots and WALKING. Gosh. At least it won’t be long now.
I see Marcus out and walk out onto our terrace. I never appreciated the quiet and the view around
me back when I was a student. In fact, I took a lot of things for granted back then, including my health
and my marriage. Things would be a lot different now if I didn’t have this accident, especially my
relationship with Aaron. I wouldn’t be holding him closer every day, kissing him more and strengthening
our bond, no I would be busy with an assignment for school or submitting a book report here and there.
My family would be getting the back burner to my dreams, and I only just realised how selfish that
made me.
My career could still flourish, but for now, I want to be a mother to my firstborn and a better wife to
Sebastian. I think they deserve 100% of my love and attention.
***
“Are you sure you want to do this, Elena?” Isaac asks me for the tenth time as we enter the gates.
“Yes, if I don’t do it now, it will haunt me forever,” I respond with the same line again and stare up at the
walls of HMP Bronzefield. One year later and Anabelle still runs through my mind; what did I do to
deserve her ire except be her friend? I loved her as a sister, and yet she hated me. I needed to know
before I went crazy.
We leave our personal belongings at the front desk and get escorted to the room where Anabelle
would be waiting. I used my last name to get an open room with her and my bodyguards would be
inside with me, along with Isaac. My brother still wanted to strangle her, but I asked him very nicely to
behave himself today… Would he though?
We come to a stop outside a glass room and I see her. The blonde hair that used to cascade down
her back in curls was now tied up in a harsh bun, so her features were even sharper than before. The
door opens and I brace myself. “Ana,” I call out and see her entire body stiffen at my voice. She slowly
turns her head around and her eyes widen when she sees me standing there. “Elena?” Her voice
cracks when she speaks and I nod, walking around and taking a seat opposite her. I had a slight limp to
my step now, so I no longer walked with a graceful swagger.
She eyes me with a questioning gaze. “What are you doing here?” Isaac takes my hand under the
table and nods. I find my strength through my only family left and smile. “I know you probably do not
want or deserve it, but I am here to say I forgive you for everything you’ve done to me. You probably
don’t deserve it because your actions could have killed me and my child, and I am not here to absolve
you of your sin or crimes. I forgive you because I understand how you felt and what drove you to do the
unthinkable, but the difference between you and me is that I never felt the need to do anything about
my jealousy.”
Looking back, I know I always felt jealous of Eliana and the love she used to get from everyone.
The only attention I ever received from my parents was when they reprimanded me for one thing or the
other. It still hurts that my mother and I never sorted out our differences, but I will learn to live with it
and not allow it to bring me down. There’s a lot I have learned from the way she parented me that I
wouldn’t know now were I brought up as a spoilt heiress.
“Why would you feel jealous of anybody? You are perfection personified.” She says with the roll of
her eyes and scoffs at my apology, but I only smile at this and shake my head. “No, you’re wrong. For
many years my mother belittled me and compared me to my sister, who I used to think was perfection
personified. I was constantly called fat and ugly and made to feel second rate, when in fact I wasn’t. My
marriage to Sebastian was out of convenience, but we ended up falling in love in the end. I worked
hard to keep my grades up at Uni and barely scraped by the first two semesters. Oh, I am also on anti-
depressants. So, no Anabelle, I am not perfect but that’s fine with me.” I say, concluding the rant that
has been weighing heavy on my heart and stand up to walk to the door. “By the way, thank you for
swapping out my contraceptive pills. Without your meddling, I would never have fallen pregnant and
have the most precious and beautiful child ever.”
I walked out holding my head high with my brother at my side and knew my days would be better
now. Yes, I did not receive the reaction I had hoped, but I said what needed to be said and now I would
be facing my biggest fear.
Our eyes meet through the window, and I see her gasp. Even in prison scrubs, Eliana was still as
beautiful as anything. Isaac opens the door for me and I stop him before he enters with me, “I need to
do this alone, love. I’m sure you understand.” I say and his eyes widen, but he nods and closes the
door when I enter the room and sits down opposite the person I used to love above all else. “What are
you doing here, Elena?” She asks with downcast eyes. I placed my fingers on the table in front of me
and noticed that she remained shackled. “I’ve come to see how my sister is doing,” I responded to her,
and her eyes met mine again in confusion. “Your sister tried to kill you and almost succeeded. Why
would you care how I was doing?” She asks with a straight face and I feel the emotions bubble to the
surface, emotions I had shoved down deeply instead of dealing with them through my therapist.
A tear falls down my cheek, and I swipe it away before it betrays my feelings. “Because once upon
a time you used to mean a lot to me. You were my confidante, my best friend, and the only one who
loved me for who I was. You accepted my rebellious ways and encouraged my dreams. You’re my
sister and you killed our parents and tried to kill me, but that doesn’t stop me from loving you. Nothing I
do helps, Eliana. Believe me, I’ve tried. So whatever you did to stop your love for me, please tell me so
I can use it too.” I say through tears and a heavy heart.
Then she does something that breaks my heart even further; she cackles.
“You honestly think I meant everything back then? Do you honestly think I loved you? I resented
you, Elena! You were the bane of my existence, the free one, the rebel who could do whatever she
wanted and got away with the most. You were the reason the Wiltshire name got entrusted to me, and I
have hated you forever for it. Mother focussed more on my life than yours. You had free rein over
anything you set your heart to. Me? I had my life planned for me right up to how many children I would
have. Did I love you, Elena? No, I hated your very existence so deciding to kill you was a three-second
decision.” She sits back and looks down at her nails, picking at an imaginary blemish.
I look at her and take in each of her toxic words, letting them swirl around my heart and letting
them sink in. Then I look at her, “Does saying that make you sleep better at night?” I say, and her head
snaps up to look at me. She frowns. “Why would I lie about my feelings towards you, Elena? You’re the
person I hate the most in this world and the only thing I am sorry for is not succeeding in killing you.”
She says with venom, but the slight crack to her voice betrays her feelings. I smile and shake my head.
“Because you love me just as much as I love you and I think doing what you did killed you, but
you’re just too proud and stubborn to admit it to yourself. I’m sorry that I drove you to try to kill me. I am
still not sure what I did to make you go through with it, but I hope one day you could forgive me for
being a terrible sister and not noticing your pain.” I say and get up from my seat. I walk over to her and
stand behind her, laying a hand over hers and kissing her hair. She smelled like Eliana even though
she’s been in prison for a year. “I forgive you, Eliana, and wish you nothing but healing,” I whisper my
last words to her and walk away for what would be the last time. As soon as I walk to the door, I hear a
sniff coming from her direction but don’t turn around, knowing what I had said would stay with her.
Isaac looks up as soon as I open the door and runs over to me, enveloping me in a hug and
kissing my hair. “How did it go?” he asks as we walk out of the prison towards his Mercedes. I shrug, “I
said what I needed to say, whether or not they accept my forgiveness doesn’t bother me.” I say, with a
lighter heart and a clearer soul. He smiles and squeezes my hand. “You’re stronger than most people I
know and I’ve met some of the toughest people out there. I’m so proud of you.” He says and kisses the
back of my hand.
We got into his car and drove away from the people who tried to end the lives of me and my child,
people who I just forgave and meant every word that came out of my heart; and I felt happy. Isaac
sighs from his seat next to me.
“You know Sebastian is going to murder me for driving you here, right?”