Chapter 48
Even my parents were very supportive with the plans and my Dad never troubles me again about marriage or anything. He was even saying I shouldn’t rush things, I should take my time and be sure of what I want. My Dad was loving and very kind whenever we sit to talk. That was what I expected from him long time ago instead of his usual bashing and constant reminder of how much of a failure I was. He was no more like his old self.
I guess my Dad changed mainly because he saw I was engaged and will soon be getting married to a wealthy man like Ohio.
Whatever made him change, i like it and was enjoying the moment of living with them again until I’m fully Mrs Jacobs.
No matter how long it takes I will get there, Cherry wanted to be Mrs Jacobs and that lead her into plotting evil. Jojo also tried but did not succeed.
I believe whatever belongs to me, will not be taken away from me…no matter how the enemies try. It may take time but it will still finds its way back to me.
My long awaited happiness has already been preordained and it will come to past very soon.
“whaaaat! Are you serious right now by asking me such question? We are not having this conversation Becca. What has come over you…?
He barked at me angrily while getting up to his feet. But I wasn’t ready to let go, we must tackle this and get to the root of it. I think I have kept quiet enough and is time to really know what was going on.Belonging © NôvelDram/a.Org.
“Answer the question Ohio. Don’t try to dodge from it because I’m fully ready to find out the truth. I deserve to know and if there’s anything you are hiding then spill it out and stop all this childish game. Tell me and make me understand, is better said out than all this confusing attitude that you kept pulling.
“Becca, you are seriously asking me if I’m impotent or have issue with my manhood? And you expect me to answer you straight up? I’m trying to understanding the angle all this is coming from but I can’t help but feel insulted.
“I never meant it as an insult. Is a very straight and simple question Ohio. But if you feel insulted then that’s fine. All that matter to me is to get an answer. We have being together for sometime even before you asked me to marry you. We did not get pass kissing and smooching which I try so hard to understand and respect your principles. But we are engaged to each other and in a month’ time we will be saying I do. What is still keeping us from getting intimate? For crying out loud we are getting married Ohio. Do your so called principles stop you from getting intimate in bed with the woman you claim to love or is there something more that I need to know? Say it…I’m tired of keeping quiet. Let me know what I’m really getting into. I don’t cheat in a relationship and will never think of it in marriage but aside everything, I need my man to be sexually active because I am. I have no apology for it…. I’m very active and is been very difficult not getting what I want from you. You told me before that you are not a virgin but even if you are one and you never slept with a woman before then start with me. I will teach you how to go about it. But I’m afraid that it maybe some terminal disease which you are trying to keep away. Knowing fully well that it will hurt our future and prevent our chances of having children, yet you want to keep it to yourself. Melinda said it even Jojo once said you maybe impotent and I’m beginning to see reason to it. Now, I believe nobody can have it all. You are too good to be true Ohio. I knew there must be something lacking in you because is not possible for you to have it all. I have not even seen the full size of what is beneath those pant of yours…. let me see it and confirm first. And also chose my battle wisely. If there is any illness or anything at all tell me….
Ohio stood watching me run my mouth like a tap water. I know he was angry but is better I say it all out and we look for a solution if there will be any.
I know I want to settle down and not just with any kind of man but a man who truly loves me and is open like my palm. I can’t take the torture of him not touching me at all. I would have understand if we are not in a relationship but we are getting married soon and are still doing kissing and smooching. There are things I can’t take or pretend is alright. Ohio’s health challenge which I have already concluded within me that he has. That is one of the things I can’t take or his reasons for keeping me in the dark.
Since he has refused to talk to me about it I have decided to get it out of him by force.
“I feel so disappointed that you will say all this to me. You went about discussing me with your sister and also with Jojo… your so called friend that was sending raunchy pictures to my phone? Becca, I never expect such from you. Our wedding is close by and I kept saying it and also pleading to you that let’s wait till we say I do before such intimate action. Is not easy with me too, several times, I almost give in but still have to restrain myself. I have try to make you understand, I pleaded with you to trust me. All I wanted was for you to trust me Becca. I can’t believe you will say all this to my face. You have fully concluded that I have health issue, that I’m impotent…. Jeeeezzzz! I feel so disappointed in you Becca. I need to cool off from all this. i will be at the swimming pool, I want to be left alone please”.
He started heading to the door but I rushed ahead of him and stood by the door. Preventing him from going out.
“You can’t run away from your problem. If you are 100percent okay with your health then prove it to me Ohio. Going to swim by this time of the night, 12am is midnight already because you don’t want to open up to the truth. Ohio, we are staying here together and we will have to talk about this and I will have to see for myself and confirmed what it looks like. Let’s deal with this issue once and for all. You say you don’t like beaten around the bush but here you are, trying to run away from the main problem at hand. You promise to do everything that will make me happy but you are making me sad and worried by limiting our intimacy to certain level. All this has to end because I’m tired of enduring and pretending.
I stood by the door preventing him from walking out. He looked at me, shakes his head pathetically. He breathed deeply before turning back. He returned to the bed and lie down on one side.
I went back to the bed where he was facing the wall side. I kept talking and calling his name but he did not reply.
I know he was not sleeping, he was only angry and want to avoid me.
I probably said more than I was supposed to say but I have stored it in for long and letting it all out is to free my mind and make him understand that I was a woman with need that are beyond money.
I crawled up to him and put my hand on his body, I expected him to remove my hand but he didn’t, he just faced the wall and remain still.
He was obviously hurt but he still loves me, I can tell from his actions.
“I’m sorry honey, I didn’t mean to say all that but i…i…
I paused and try to make him turn over and look at me and he eventually did. His face was plain as he stare right back at me without words.
I wonder what he was thinking. Sometime I wish I can read his mind and thoughts. He later shut his eyes again, I guess he was trying to force sleep. I went to lie down very close to him, where I can feels his breath on my face. He open his eyes and try to turn back to the wall but I held him there and whispered “I love you” he did not reply back which was unlike him.
I kissed him for some time and stopped, I repeated the same action while putting my hands under his top.
He never responded to the kiss but as I kept on with it, he began to respond.
I didn’t want it to be just another round of kiss this time. So I decided to help him do the needful that night by trying to take action of every part of his body that I need to touch just to arouse him. I went straight to his pyjamas trouser. He suddenly stopped me and pull back my hands.
“Sto…stop it Becca. I’m not in the mood for thi…..
I didn’t let him complete his word, I stubbornly refused to be intimidated by his action and continued.
He tried to get up from the bed and leave the room because I refused to let him rest but there was no going out for him.
Since he was not in the mood, I will help him get in the mood but I need to see and feel what I haven’t fully seen before.
I climbed on top of him and continued my drama. It took time for him to respond again and this time he looks worn out from my disturbance,