Chapter 60: There is no possibility
It’s all fate, she said, liking York Charlie.
Lorcan George laughed bitterly in his heart; wasn’t it fate that he liked her?
It is destiny, it is destined to be unable to escape and hide, can afford but can not let go. I just don’t know, in the end is he love her more deeply, or she love York Charlie more deeply? If she loves York Charlie as much as he loves her, this is a knot that is destined to be entangled to death and cannot be untangled.
He will suffer forever.
On such a quiet night, perfect for talking about feelings and thinking about life, Blanche Capra’s stomach growled unseasonably. Both men were stunned.
Eventually Blanche Capra said, embarrassed, “I haven’t eaten almost all day today, I almost forgot …”
Lorcan George looks sultry, “Blanche Capra, do I owe you! Can we talk properly?”
“I can’t help it …” Blanche Capra smiled awkwardly, “Lorcan, you recognise the truth. The two of us … talking about love is, uh, really inappropriate.”
Drunken Lorcan George was sober for a moment and confused for a moment, but not at all catty; perhaps it was only under such circumstances that the two could let go of their days of awkwardness and knots, and reluctantly snark at each other as they had done before?
Blanche Capra did not think that she and Lorcan George, after that kind of hurt, could still talk about the relationship in such a calm and peaceful manner, and could still snicker at each other once in a while, and could still … Blanche Capra’s thoughts stuttered, and glanced at Lorcan, who was sitting across from her and eating dumplings. George, she smiled gently and said, “I can’t believe we can still sit and eat dumplings together like before.”
Lorcan George didn’t know whether to be lost or grateful when he heard these words. His confession of his heart, his fight for affection, had cut a gulf between the two, and there was no more talking and laughing like before, he should have seen it coming.
He wanted to lean in closer to her, to live in her heart. She, on the other hand, drove him further away, even trying to cut him off. Thinking of this, Lorcan George could not help but complain about her heartlessness, put down his chopsticks with a cautious face, raised his head and said to her, “Blanche Capra, let me make it clear for the record haha, it’s fine if you don’t accept me, but how can you not even be friends anymore? It’s your business if you don’t accept me, but you can’t take away my right to pursue you ah …”
Blanche Capra’s mouth froze as she tightened her fingers slightly, and it took her a long time before she raised her face to meet his likewise, the corners of her mouth barely pulling up another apologetic smile, “I’m sorry Lorcan, you have a point, it’s me who’s being selfish, I can’t help you with everything to take liberties with your decisions… … I’ve always felt that liking me would be a burden to you, you deserve to be a better person …”
Blanche Capra paused, ready to continue. Lorcan George suddenly picked up on her words and smiled bitterly, “How good a person do you think I could be? I’ve also been alive for more than twenty years, it’s hard to think that it’s because of you that I’ve been this idle and foppish?”
Blanche Capra shook her head, “You don’t understand, Lorcan. in fact …” she bit her lip, “I’m actually not as simple as you think.” She wanted to say, “I neither like you nor can I be with you, I’m a person who carries a painful past and can never come out of it ah. Maybe in this life, she can only be entangled with York Charlie, she can’t be redeemed inside even if she gets revenge on him.
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Lorcan George laughed softly, “I’ve been with you for so long, I also always feel like you always have something on your mind sometimes, just because I don’t say it doesn’t mean I don’t know ah.”
Blanche Capra moved her mouth to speak, but Lorcan George reached out and signalled for her to stop, “Listen to me. I understand everything you’re trying to say, after all you’re just trying to tell me that it’s just not possible between us. But who knows what the future holds? Would the old you have known this about yourself now? Don’t you think so?”
Blanche Capra was dumbfounded by his gag.
Lorcan George, however, as if he was relieved, stood up and stretched, smiling, “Well, what’s to be said has been made clear, and I’ve had my fill… Alas, in fact, I couldn’t eat at all, and it wasn’t for the sake of accompanying you?”
He intends to joke and lighten the mood, and Blanche Capra smiles, “Then hurry up and take a shower! I’ll clean up!”
Seeing Lorcan George go into the bathroom, Blanche Capra thought about the conversation she just had while cleaning up the dishes.
Where did it make sense? There was actually a lot she wanted to say, but after all was said and done it was really just that one thing. There was no way she and Lorcan George could be together. As for his comment about the future being anyone’s guess, she supposed it depended on the time frame. At this point in her life, with so many defining events in the past, there were no other possibilities left for her.
All she had left as a possibility was to be stuck with the man.
Lorcan George saw Blanche Capra lying asleep on the couch when he came out of the bathroom. He tried calling to her gently twice, but she was still sleeping heavily, I’m afraid she was too tired. He remembered the events of these days, in fact, everyone is not doing well, right?
After thinking about it, he still gently picked her up and placed her on the bed in the bedroom.
All the lights are out, Lorcan George only left a bedside lamp dim small, but enough for him to see her sleeping face. Lorcan George wanted to see her quietly for a while, so he planned to lie on the other side of the bed for a while.
But he had overestimated himself. He was physically and mentally exhausted, and he had been drinking, so if he lay on his side of the bed after a shower, wouldn’t it have an immediate effect on his sleep?
So Lorcan George was asleep in less than three minutes.
The gods had been kind to him.
To be able to sleep next to his beloved, and to see her face when he opened his eyes the next day, Lorcan George’s heart leapt with joy, and the pain he had felt for some time eased a lot.
He didn’t expect to fall asleep like that.
Nor did he expect that he would be the first to wake up.
So that he could lie there a little longer and look at her face more intimately.
Lorcan George’s eyes did not blink as he looked at the person lying beside him, her eyelashes were thick and slender, like two small fans, the bridge of her nose was straight and straight, and her lips were beautifully defined, not too thin and not too thick just right. The side of her cheek that was facing him at the moment was white and tender, and I wondered if it was soft to the touch.
Lorcan George couldn’t help but reach out and poke his finger.
Blanche Capra, on the other hand, woke up at that moment!
He tensed at once, and Blanche Capra looked at him with half-opened eyes, muttering, “What are you doing here? Come to wake me up?”
Lorcan George was a thief and nodded busily.
Blanche Capra raised her arm to her forehead and said wearily, “You go out, go home yourself, I don’t care about you, I’m going to go on and get some sleep.”
Lorcan George froze and reminded her, “Don’t you have to work today?”
Blanche Capra was still a little foggy in the head and was blown awake by his comment. She was too busy sitting up to see him still sitting on her bed and couldn’t help but reach out and push him, “Go back to your house! I’m taking the day off to sleep, don’t bother anyone!”
Lorcan George, seeing her reluctant to go to work on a rare occasion and feeling sorry for her as she went about her day like a workaholic, nodded, “Fine, you get some rest, I’m going back!”
Blanche Capra hmmm’d twice.
Only when she heard the sound of him going out and closing the door did she pick up her mobile phone that was charging, switch it on, and call the director to tell him she was off.