Lonely Bride

“No, you don’t. I deadpanned what I said.

“I smile at people who are close to my heart.

” I melted hearing this, as this is the first time, he has said something like this.

Ivan is a man of few words. Over his phone, he also notices he is mostly in hmmm. But his actions speak louder than his words, which I don’t know about others but have noticed.

He means no harm to anyone; it’s just that his persona is so rigid that he can’t do anything about it, I guess.

I again lost myself looking at his feathers. He is boiling, and I don’t know why he doesn’t get into any relationships. I am sure he can get any girl on his knees.

“Is there something on my face, or is today the best day of life as Ms. Rose is gracing her undivided attention to me today?” He smirks when he notices me gawking at him.

Well, I was lost in my thoughts, or else I had no interest in him. But again, it was embarrassing when he caught me red-handed.

“Hmmm, I was looking outside the window.” I made a lame excuse.

“You have one on your side, too.” He countered.

“But your side view is better,” I reply, scratching my neck and feeling extremely stupid.

“Surely.” I notice his smirk, but I’d rather pretend I haven’t and shut my mouth till we reach And as Ivan is a man of few words, he was concentrating on his driving, thankfully.

I looked at both the girls, and they were busy playing games on their tablets, and I again looked out while pouting my lips when I did not get any attention from them.

We reached the beach after an hour’s drive and got down. The girls’ faces were worth watching, as happiness was an understatement of what they looked like.

After parking our cars, we padded towards the beachside while taking all the stuff we got from home.

The girls started discarding their dresses and were ready to jump in the water as soon as possible. I noticed they were already wearing the swim costumes inside their dresses, and I know this must be Natalia’s idea. She is always very thoughtful. Parminder, Simi, and Ivan took them inside the water while I and Natalia set up the place with food and umbrellas to have some shade when the sun shone.

Removing her dress, Natalia also went inside. I always loved how her age never stopped her from living her life wisely. She enjoyed every bit.

I don’t like to go into the water, so I just wore my shades and opened my book to read. After some time, I again look up to see my family and smile, looking at them and enjoying them to the fullest.

I wander my eyes around and notice a couple cuddling each other and looking so much in love.

A sudden old memory rushed into my mind, and my cheerful mood took a sudden turn and made me sad. Tears rushed into my eyes.

How much I hate this feeling, but it always hits me hard. I try to surpass this feeling, but it comes with more pressure every time.

I look up at the sky to control the wave of emotion, but I guess nothing will help me now.

I looked at my family’s cheerful face, and I wanted to run away before they saw me like this. Jerking, I got up and looked down to search for something to hide, but found nothing.

My breathing was getting uneven, and I knew I had a sudden panic attack, but I didn’t want anyone to see my vulnerable state.

I bit my lips, and my hand and body started shivering, and my vision was getting bluer because of tears.

My eyes got stuck on the key to my car, and I jumped on it and looked ahead at my fortunate people.

Now how should I tell them where I am going? I know they will be worried if they don’t see me.

As Ivan noticed my gaze, he looked back, and I showed him the key so he knew I was going towards the car. I guess he nodded, but again, without caring, I started walking as fast as I could because of the sand.

Reaching the car, I closed the door and dropped my head on the steering wheel. The pool of tears started flowing through my eyes, and I sobbed as much as I wanted.This is from NôvelDrama.Org.

Why, oh why, am I feeling like this?

Why can’t I forget him?

I just hate it when my heart misses him.

I hate it when I think only of him when I see a couple around.

My clutch tightens at the steering wheel when my body shivers vigorously. I know about these panic attacks, and I know I can handle them. It was not the first time I had them.

I looked up while taking a deep breath, closed my eyes, and thought about Bella.

My Bella.

Her smile, giggles, and cute antics are so beautiful. She is my life. My only reason to live

I open my eyes with a smile, but tears keep flowing from my eyes. But my body is relaxing, I know.

Closing my eyes, I took a few more breaths and stayed in the same position for, I don’t know, how long.

I opened my eyes when I heard a knock and saw Natalia looking at me with a painful expression on her face.

I know she has an idea of what I am doing here. She opened the door, and with no word, she took me in her loving arms. I accepted her love, smiled, and looked up. Thank God, at least I have some people who care for me, and they are my true well-wishers.

I got a little calmer, but despite that, my mind is not right. And I know what can calm my throbbing nerves, and for that, I have to reach home as soon as possible.

“I am fine, Natalia.” Breaking the hug I said while cleaning my tears from the back of my hand.

“If you are not fine today, then you will be fine tomorrow, my dear,” she said with a smile, and this is what I love the most about her. She looks positive about anything and everything.

“Come, let’s go.” I nodded to her.

“We padded towards the beach back.

Mommy Bella ran to me the moment her eyes landed on me, and I hugged her tightly like a bundle of joy.

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