Its Too Late To Forgive

Chapter 76: 75. I WILL GIVE YOU MY KIDNEY

“I’m going on a business trip these few days. After my business trip, I will take you to Evans House?”

“Not a problem. Now a days I get really bored in the house. Won't it be better to let Manager Claire to accompany me. Bored at home, I am about to get sick. I have no other place to go.”

She lowered her eyes. Sorting out his salute on the errand tomorrow, he said slowly,

“…Anyway, with Manager Claire, I can go shopping or just have lunch outside .”

As She said, Henry glanced at her with soft eyes,

“Well, then I will call Claire, Let her accompany you tomorrow."

The next day, Henry left for his business meeting. This time he was going to the UK for a few days. Before leaving, he carefully instructed the people around him to take care of Bella.

Standing at the door, Bella waved at the man,

“Go early and return early and be safe.”

Henry's eyes became softer and happy. When he got in the car, the cold wind in the winter could not blow the warmth of his heart.

It wasn’t until Henry's car drove out of sight that Claire gave Bella a hand,

“Ok.. Let’s go, no more pretending.”

Bella was slightly surprised,

“How do you know that I was acting?”

Claire smiled and glanced at her,

“I still remember the first time we met, I asked you why I came to so young and willing to be a cleaner. Do you remember your answer?”

"Of course I remember. I said, if I can sell, I’m willing to spread my legs and say welcome. Before I came, I had seen myself. I didn’t have the capital to sell myself, so I would work hard. Do what I can do.”

After speaking, she was silent. Claire smiled and patted Bella on the shoulder,

“In your eyes, being gentle to please big boss and being a humble cleaner, are actually the same. Both of these in your eyes are like a transaction.”

Claire suddenly leaned in and approached Bella's ear,

“If you talk about being ruthless, you are really ruthless. But I, and even others, are not qualified to judge you. Because a life is forced to be sentimental and not emotional, one has to be ruthless. Only the person involved knows the hardship one have experienced in it. If I haven’t experienced it, what right do I have to criticize you.”

As she said, she chuckled and patted Bella who was already stunned,

“Okay, we should start. Where do you want to go? What do you want to buy?"

"Manager Claire, I w....."

"It's only Claire for you."

Claire said with a smile while putting her seat belt. Bella who was on the passenger seat smiled brightly hearing Claire's words.

"Then... Claire.. "

"Much better, tell me."

"I want to go to the bank and have to pick up a parcel but I don't want anyone else to know about this."

Claire was surprised for a minute and then she turned and looked at Bella,

"Then why are you telling me this?"

"Because you are the one who believed me since the start. I know even you have suffered alot in your life and I am sure you will understand my further decisions."

Claire didn't say a word, just nodded her head and smiled at Bella.

…

“Ten minutes ago, Madam entered your study. Madam said she was looking for a book. When she hurried away, she forgot to take the book she wanted to read.”

The owner who received this message instantly condensed his black eyes, staring at the message for a full quarter of an hour. The dark pupils gradually contracted and expanded holding on to stormy waves inside at this moment!

Carson discovered his abnormality,

“What’s the matter?”

Then Kevin found him staring at his phone in a daze,

“Whose text message?”

The latter stead fastly kept this movement still. Just when Kevin stretched out his hand to snatch the phone, Henry suddenly raised his eyes, focused on Kevin’s eyes, and said with thin lips,

"Kevin now you also know everything about Bella."

Hearing this Kevin slightly nodded his head. He was feeling guilty since Carson told him about Bella's suffering in the prison. Eventhough he was not involved directly but he knew that because of his presence all the lawyers, contacted by Brandon, refused to take Bella's case.

Kevin was world renowned lawyer. To have an appointment with him, one needed to wait for months before getting. His one hour fees matched equivalent to any mediocre company's CEO's monthly salary. He was number one in his field and all the lawyers always were scared of him. It was a record that till date, this man has never lost any of his case.

"Kevin, you once quoted that a person’s attitude changes drastically before and after some incidence. So is it really because one compromised?

You said once that one person can really pay for his past mistakes. Can all mistakes be corrected?”

Henry asked Kevin in a dull voice.The former part of his question refers to Bella, the latter to himself.

“Nothing will change, I am simply lying to myself.”

Henry said with a laugh. She hates him so much and even doesn’t want to see him. How could she suddenly change her attitude and be willing to face him peacefully?

It was just a dream he didn’t want to wake up, a dream of self-deception.

Carson looked at Henry. It felt as if he could read Henry's thoughts, It is nothing more than a self- deception scam. Once this scam will be shattered and he will wake up from his dream.

“If you miss out, you will miss out forever Henry."

Kevin rarely gets into serious conversation with Henry about Bella,

“It’s time to let go.”

Carson also nodded his head in affirmation. Henry's breathing became heavy, and it could be seen that he was upset and struggling.

“Guys, do you know....?”

Both of them looked at the man opposite to them carefully. Hr raised the coffee cup with trembling arms and took a sip. They didn’t know if he had tasted the essence of this coffee but his appearance made them look at him again and again.

Feeling very uncomfortable, the man on the other side put down his coffee cup just as they were about to speak sonething to comfort him,

“Every time we had sex, she would take birth control pills. She claimes them to be vitamin tablets."

Henry laughed miserably.

“What she didn’t know was that the bottle was actually swapped with real vitamin tablets. I replaced the contraceptive pill in the original bottle, I commissioned someone to re-mold it and at the fastest speed, I customized a batch of “vitamin tablets” with almost the same shape and taste from my pharmaceutical company.

I knew that the bottle of contraceptives was no longer the contraceptive she was thinking of. Even so I feel an inexplicable pain in my heart that whenever we made out, I would see that she would take pills out of the bottle and swallow it without water.

I can’t say how uncomfortable it is. I am uncomfortable here."

Henry raised his fist and knocked on his left chest. The man had tears but didn’t flick it. Carson and Kevin, both were stunned at the moment. Man only cries when he is in deep pain. Now they can

understand the pain Henry is going through.

Henry raised his head,

“You…”

Henry has deep rooted in love now and how can he let go for her now. Henry licked his lips which had salty taste of his tears.

"Now you are asking me to let go... This part here...."

Henry pounded on his left chest again,

“It’s still uncomfortable.”

Kevin’s thin lips moved and closed. He suddenly realized that his mock inspiration quotes just seemed so insubstantial in comparison.

Carson stretched out his hand and patted the opposite person on the shoulder,

“One wrong moves makes all moves wrong. When you threw her in the prison back then, did it ever cross your mind that this day might come?"

Although he shouldn’t say it but still he did,

"Henry you know you were wrong first. We did find some evidences that indicates that she might be innocent.

I agree that you had planned to keep her in the prison for 6 months and that was not basically for Cindy's death but for your unborn child, that Cindy was carrying that time.

But to say the truth she loved you first and you make the mistake first. Your action of raping her that time shows your hatred her. Your hatred came first.

Now that she has withdrawn herself from all her feelings, you should let go of her. Atleast this is what you owe her.”

Henry stretched out his hand and pushed away the hand that Carson had placed on his shoulder,

“You guys go out first, I want to be alone for a while.”

Carson’s lips parted slightly but then simply sighed. Both of them looked at each other, then stood up, recruited. They found the waiter and asked him to call the manager. Carson took out his wallet and without counting, put all the money in the wallet on the counter,

"Is this money enough to clear the restaurant completely?”

Its been almost 2 two hours that Henry was sitting alone in an unknown restaurant. No staff or public was allowed to enter the area. Only soft music from the recorder was going on.

Kevin and Carson were standing outside the restaurant. Even though they looked calm but they both knew what kind of turnmoil they were feeling inside.

Time to time they would peep through the window and look at Henry. The latter had not even moved a single inch since last two hours.

Fianlly Carson gave up. Being a doctor, he knew that this was not good for Henry's health. It was by chance that they all were in UK at the same time.

Kevin was here for a very big international case. In case he wins then there will be no match to his calibre in entire world. Where as Carson was here to see the administration of his new hospital that he had set here.

As soon as Carson touched the door of the restaurant, the door was opened from inside. Henry came out. Carson couldn't stop himself and to lighten the mood, he joked,

"I thought you slept. Didn't know that your choice has changed so much."

"Ha ha.. I need to go to the main branch and then directly to the airport. My private jet will leave in 2 hours, you better reach on time."

When the plane arrived, two men very handsome, tall and cool personality men walked through the private channel. They were not a celebrity, but they could attract countless attention wherever they went.

The black business car was already waiting outside. It picked up the two men.

“Bella…”

Carson hesitated for a long time, but when the car drove onto unavoidable road to Jackson Mansion, he mentioned the person's name Henry was reluctant to talk about at this moment,

“Are you going to…”

“She is my wife. We will have children.”

Carson paused. He turned his head to look at the cold side of the man beside him and suddenly a ridiculous feeling surged in his heart. He felt that the man in front of him was more ill and after suffering, he chose to close part of himself.

This is equivalent to escape. But can Henry Jackson escape?

Carson only felt that his brain was buzzing, which was indescribable.

“It’s better you don't meddle in our affairs. After the car arrives at the mansion, Martin will drive you back. I am sorry but I suppose I won’t invite you in.”

Carson seemed speechless but angry. He genuinely cared about both of them.

“Do you think she will fall in love with you again, after you two have children together? Do you think She will love you as persistently as she did in the past?”

He lowered his head and asked with an awkward tone. Henry’s face suddenly changed and he immediately shouted,

“Shut up.”

“Ha ha ha… But every time you made each other, she ate “vitamin tablets”, didn’t she?”

Carson didn’t listen to Henry's words. The man next to him, his pupils suddenly shrank and the pain in his eyes filled his entire body. He even squeezed his fist deeply, pressed it on the seat cushion, smashed and crushed just to avoid this pain to spread.

“Henry, don’t make any more mistakes.”

Carson raised his head and looked at Henry sincerely and requested in a pleading tone,

“Henry, for so many years, you have never given her what she wanted. Intially she loved you like nobody can ever love someone, she trusted you but as for you, you neither loved her whole heartedly nor you ever able to give her your trust. She waited for you, days after days, months after months, years after years. But what did you do?

Just this time, she wants to go. Then please let her go."

He paused for a minute.

"I am a medical student and I do understand how human hearts grow but more then that I know that mental torture can make an alive person nothing better then a walking dead person. Are you watch her becoming insane?

If you continue to be so obsessed ans stubborn then maybe one day, in the near future, she will really be driven crazy by you. You want a madman to accompany you throughout your life and give birth to children for you. Or do you want her to be someone who can laugh and cry?"

“Shut up! I am telling you to shut up!”

The man’s eyes were red and he slammed his fist on the seat. He couldn’t imagine the woman leaving him! Never.

“Stop!”

He suddenly shouted. The heart of the driver in front was lifted up and the brake under his feet was suddenly stepped on, making a harsh “creak”.

“Get out of the car!”

He coldly raised his chin at Carson and motioned to him to get off the car. The latter didn’t argue. He got off the car in silence and stood beside the car and staredat Henry intently,

“You know, none of us would like to see you hurt. If we knew that one day you would fall so deeply then for sure me and Kevin would have taken some action 5 years back. May be "accident death in prison"...

You don’t have to look at me like this, I think if Kevin sees you like this, he will also agree with me. And infact you would have done the same of either of us."

Henry's black eyes became more profound now. He also looked at Carson deeply before turning her head,

“Drive.”

The car drove away again and the man in the back seat of the car closed his eyes, his eyebrows were filled with imperceptible fatigue and he rubbed his forehead.

The car stopped at Jackson Mansion. Henry got out of the car, turned to the driver and said,

“Go back and take Dr. Carson home.”

He bypassed the housekeeper Mrs. Rose, strode into the room, passed the hall and grabbed Bella in the living room.

“Ah~ what are you doing!”

Henry didn’t say a word, and dragged her upstairs.

“Be Gentle! Are you crazy~!”

Sometimes a person's silence is more terrifying then when he or she are noisy.

“Let go...!”

"Sir, please let Miss. Bella go."

Nina rushed towards Henry and while trying to touch him, said in a cottequish tone.

"First of all it's Mrs. Bella or madam for you. And secondly it's none of your fucking business. So get lost."

Henry entered their room. He was like crazy. He threw her on the bed like he has gone berserk. He felt that by hugging her was the only way he could feel her temperature. He felt that this was the only way he could feel that she was still beside him. And did not leave him and go away.

Henry ripped her clothes and attacked her body again and again. Even though his actions and approach was harsh and rough but his moves inside her body were soft. He loves her. He made sure that nothing will hurt. He accepts that his prior actions were scary but now he was slow and soft.

But for Bella, even being in close proximity to him was a torture. It was like a love drama, no one is happy, she is like a broken doll, her limbs slumped on the bed without strength and he, gasping for breath, gasping like a beast.

Bella didn’t look at him, she just looked at the ceiling in a daze. She didn’t want to look at him, nor today nor ever.

The man on her body rose. He propped up his arm, stood up from her and it was obvious that her body was light, and then the bed underneath was also light.

He got out of the bed and strode to the dressing table. He opened the drawer, and took out the medicine bottle. He strode to the head of the bed again , towards Bella and stretched out his arm,

“Don’t you want to take your medicine?”

“You…”

She panicked instantly. He immediately sneered,

"These are your Vitamin tablets, right?”

His thin lips slowly curled up. There was no trace of human warmth on it. With the other free hand, he unscrewed the bottle cap and the dark pupil were locked straight on the woman infront of him. With a turn of his palm, he poured out a handful of tablets. The curvature of his thin lips became bigger and bigger and his coldness became worse.

He raised his head and stuffed a handful of tablets into his mouth. He swallowed dozen of tablets in front of her.

Bella’s pupil contracted suddenly, it was too late to think about anything else. She almost leaped forward and hooked his arm,

"No! You can’t eat them!”

“Why can’t I eat it? Aren’t they vitamin tablet?”

He smiled but his smile did not reach his eyes,

“You can eat it, right?”

“I, I…” “I”

What? What can she say?? Say these are not vitamin tablets ???

While chewing the pills in his mouth, he looked down at the woman. One tablet in his mouth was extremely bitter. As he had taken alot of them, he couldn’t feel the bitterness of the medicine in his lips. He kept on chewing them as they were just some different flavour chewing gums.

Bella opened her mouth. Every time she wanted to say something, she realized that she couldn’t say anything. She was incapable of explaining anything right now.

She stared at his throat and watched him swallow each and every tablet with the movements of his throat. He was still chewing on the pills. Her chest was a little sore, stuffy and very painful. But she couldn’t tell why. She raised her head and looked into his eyes,

“Spit it out.”

“Why? Why are you acting so stingy my angel?? Can't you even share vitamins with me??? I’ll buy you more if I finish them."

He talked to her affectionately but the pain in his eyes remained. He seemed to be torn apart by a pair of hands in his heart, making a “stabbing” tearing sound, which he tried to ignore. He thought, at least this woman is still reluctant to bear him, otherwise, even if he eats something which is very poisonous, why should she care? It is ridiculous that he only realized that this was his last bargaining chip!

She said,

“It’s not good to eat too many vitamin tablets at once, so spit it out, okay?”

He said,

“Okay.”

All the original words he had planned to expose her, were hidden in his heart, and he continued to pretend not to know anything.

He spat out what was remaining in his mouth. Whilst frowning, he pretended to smack his mouth and taste.

“These vitamin tablet are disgusting in the taste. You should not eat them. I will buy you new ones.”

Her face changed drastically. She almost snatched the medicine bottle from his hand and then explained to him unnaturally,

“I like this taste. Let's wait until this one is finished.”

He suddenly touched her back waist and her whole body instantly stiffened and her face became even more unnatural,

“Don’t touch me!”

She almost yelled aloud. The expression in her eyes was even more painful and embarrassing. They had become even harder to conceal now.

"Tell me Bella, will there be a chance that my kidney can sit in this part of yours?" Nôvel/Dr(a)ma.Org - Content owner.

Bella's expression changed drastically and she shrank backwards,

“What do you mean?”

She stared at the man in front of her defensively.

“If there is one thing is allowed in exchange of another thing then tell me, if I GIVE YOU MY KIDNEY, can you give me something else?”

He looked at her tenderly. But Bella on the other hand was feeling cold all over,

“Don’t joke around …please don't joke with this thing.. okay?

Didn't you say yourself that we will live a good life together? We are living a good life, a very good life. You don’t want to make this kind of joke again, and stop thinking about this kind of thing."

She thought he had come up with a new way to torture her. And she was scared. She was scared of Henry all over again. She now even more determined to run away.

Henry listened to Bella's words, 'We are living a good life'. He wanted to laugh but also wanted to cry at the same time. It’s so suprising to see, Henry Jackson, the high and mighty, the ones that heavens took pity on now has such contradictory human feelings.

“Okay, if that's what you say, We have a good life, then we will shall have a good life angel.”

He pushed her head softlt onto his shoulder. He clenched his left hand in a way that she could not see it.

"Angel, when I told you that I will give you my kidney in exchange of something else, why didn't you ask me what that thing was that I wanted?"

He whispered in her ears. He could clearly feel the stiffness of the woman in his arms.

“Stop making trouble, okay? This joke is not funny at all.”

He listened to her as she evaded this topic deliberately, and chuckled lightly. His eyes softened but there was a painful color that flashed through this softness. He then held her closer and said softly,

"Okay, no more funny joke."

He kissed her on her hair and said,

“These vitamin, Let’s stop eating, okay?”

From the corner of his eyes, he saw Bella clenching on the bottle tightly even though he was holding her tightly in his arms. He thought, if she could compromise this time, he would immediately donate half of personal assets to the society towards the welfare of the woman who were raped or tortured. The other half of his assets, he will use to raise her and their children. Which will be more then enough, even for his coming seven generations.

Time seemed to stand still but a few seconds of this time also seemed to be a century for him. And his waiting heart was anxious. He only discovered that he had already cared about this woman in a state that transcended the state of lunacy.

"I want to finish this bottle. I don't like wasting."

Boom!

The wall in my heart collapsed!

She still wants to eat these damn “vitamin tablet”. No she does not want to eat these tablets but what she really wants is not to have a child from him. She just can no longer love him! She just wanted to draw a line with him!

Henry gently pushed the woman away from his arms and gently took the medicine bottle from her hand. She was very anxious, he smiled comfortingly at her. He then poured out a pill again, pinched the pill, and put it in his mouth. Under her dumbfounded gaze, he encircled the back of her head and his thin lips blocked her.

Bitterness passed through his lips into her lips. At this moment, Bella stubbornly clenched on her left chest and pressed it firmly, as if doing so would relieve the pain that was about to spread out of the chest cavity.

For a moment, she was lost, didn’t she... did she do something wrong? Has she made a mistake??

But just for an instant, her eyes were extremely firm. He was her misfortune, there should be no connection with each other. She was sure that she had not made any mistake.!

This kiss was bitter and long, and there was a trace of unspeakable arousal. But neither of the two sides took it seriously.

He released her gently and smiled lightly. Honestly, he looked extremely handsome when he smiled. But he was usually cold and indifferent to others.

He ruffled her hair with his big palm,

“Okay, I will listen to you this time. We will not waste this bottle but you have to promise mw that onxe it's over, we will not buy this brand again, okay?”