Chapter 108
Kenji watched her turn to him. His heart skipped three beats once her oval eyes landed on him. She had not looked at him like that in a long while; with longing, desire, need. He had even begun to think she now hated him. If he was being honest, he was relieved she did not. He would have not known how to come back from that.
After his discussion with his parents, Kenji was able to make a decision. Now that he knew his parents’ views on the matter, he had to think about his views and what he really wanted for himself. It had taken him a full day to do proper thinking and consideration, but his mind was finally made up. He was hoping to speak to Ashley about it.
She needed to know the truth, who he was, what he really wanted and what he could and could not give at this moment. He cared about her so she had to know what she was getting into, what she stood to gain and what she had to lose. He had stopped by her room earlier on, but soon realized she was training. He had taken the pains to come to the training ground because he had a feeling, a deep feeling in his gut that Ashley would only take what he had to say seriously, if he came to speak to her in public.
The girl was tired of secret meetings and hidden conversations. What she wanted, was for Kenji to be frank with himself, with the people around him and with her. He could only hope that his small show would earn him five minutes of her time.
“I was going to get ice cream with the girls. It’s really hot and I am very tired.” Ashley insisted. Kenji heaved a long sigh and moved his gaze away from her. Hadley, Zelda, Brandy and Zita, all stood behind her. Their stared at both of them keenly and Kenji inhaled and exhaled deeply. He had not thought, in a million years, that he would do or say what he was about to say.
“Alright. I could take everyone to get ice cream later. But, I really need to speak to Ashley for five minutes. Would that be okay?” He asked out loud. He saw the girls exchange knowing looks as they chuckled.
By the goddess, he would have melted into the ground in embarrassment. Hadley was the first to nod her head and walk past them, Zelda and Brandy followed behind. Zita stayed back and eyed the both of them in disdain, before she walked away and took a different turn from the rest of the girls.
Kenji paid her no mind. He returned his gaze to the beautiful woman standing in front of him. The woman whose smile he had yearned to see for days, the woman who his spirit, soul and body had missed in ways he never thought possible.
Ashley stepped down from the stage and stood in front of him. She folded her arms underneath her chest as she stared at him. Kenji’s eyes willingly traveled to the valley between her breasts. His eyes sparkled in delight, he had missed them too much for him to admit.
“You opted to get the whole team ice cream, this thing you have to say must be really important.” Ashley started to speak. He tore his gaze away from her chest reluctantly, but her charming smile was more than enough to compensate him for his loss.
“Well, the whole team besides Zita,” Kenji added. Ashley shook her head as she chuckled.
“That was too chivalrous of you anyway.” She added.
Kenji took one step closer to her, gently closing the distance between them.
“Nothing is too much for you. You should know that…”
Ashley’s smile suddenly disappeared from her face. She took a step backwards and held out her hand to his face, a gesture that caused him to seize his speech.
“Kenji, please don’t…”
But Kenji would not be deterred. The more steps she took away from him, the closer he moved to her.
“Listen, Ashley. The truth is that I am not ready to settle down. Marriage, forever, the concept of these things have never really appealed to me. But lately, I have been so scared of losing you to my selfishness and I really do not know why.”
Ashley stopped moving away. She stood at a spot and her hands dropped to her sides as she listened to him speak. Something in her told her to raise her guard up, this was just another ploy for him to get to her, before he shattered her heart into pieces again. But he seemed different. Like he had peeled off a cover from him and he was now bare, naked.
There was a truth she had never seen in his eyes before, it made it impossible for her to look away from him.
“Ash, the truth is I might not be able to give you what you want right now. I might not be able to get down on one knee and swear the rest of my life to you, give you children and live happily ever after, but you are important to me.” He stretched out a hand to her and took both her hands in his, he caressed her knuckles softly, while looking deep into the depth of her eyes, seeking to open the windows of her heart to him.
“I just want us to take it slow. We should be officially dating. You know, boyfriend and girlfriend stuff…”Belonging to NôvelDrama.Org.
Ashley interrupted his statement with a genuine laugh. She threw her head back and Kenji’s heart warmed at the blissful sound.
“I mean every word, Ashley. Who knows? You might get tired of me before you know it.” Kenji added. Ashley continued to smile and giggle as she looked down at him.
“Are you serious? You really have no idea how long I’ve been waiting to hear those words, have you? I wouldn’t be able to get tired of your obnoxious ass even if I tried.” Ashley replied. Kenji’s heart did a summersault in his chest. If he did not know better, he would have thought he felt butterflies flutter in his stomach.
“I really hope you mean that.”
“I do. I mean, as long as you don’t have eyes outside for someone else. I would stop doing personal sessions, it’s not that much fun anyway. The last one I took; I could not bring myself to do anything sexual with him.” Kenji saw her blush, he knew why. Her soft cheeks turned red and rosy.
She turned away from him and Kenji took that opportunity to pull her towards himself. When she crashed against his chest, he slipped his hands to the small of her back. Ashley’s heart continued to pound against her chest. He was so close to her, so close she could barely breathe.
“It’s all in the past. We do not have to talk about it.”
Ashley laughed and fixed her eyes on him. By the goddess! He had missed the blissful and musical sound of her laughter.
“I have other ideas for things we could do.” He tried to lean into her neck, but she playfully punched his back.
“How about the ice cream you promised the girls?”
Kenji raised his head.
“What?”
“They are all behind you and they don’t look very happy,” Ashley added. Kenji turned his back instantly.
“Fuck.” He cried out.
Ashley was right. There was an army of three annoyed and ice cream-deprived women behind him.